I've started fights with three people today, for no reason. I snapped at Charlie Weasley, and who ever snaps at him? I never have before. It was just because of the way he was looking at me.
I don't want to eat anything but meat. The rarer the better. I'm ravenous.
And ... oh, this is embarrassing.
I'm ravenous in other ways. I'm avoiding Colin because I either want to hit him, or I want to pounce on him. Like when I want to kiss him, except I want to do more than kiss.
Private message to Madam Pomfrey and Hermione Granger
Date: 2015-05-31 02:13 am (UTC)I've started fights with three people today, for no reason. I snapped at Charlie Weasley, and who ever snaps at him? I never have before. It was just because of the way he was looking at me.
I don't want to eat anything but meat. The rarer the better. I'm ravenous.
And ... oh, this is embarrassing.
I'm ravenous in other ways. I'm avoiding Colin because I either want to hit him, or I want to pounce on him. Like when I want to kiss him, except I want to do more than kiss.
everyone must hate me
Re: Private message to Madam Pomfrey and Hermione Granger
Date: 2015-05-31 02:35 am (UTC)You're going through something new, and you'll need to figure out what helps and what makes things worse, that's all.
Can you try to think of it instead as a fascinating experiment, like you would look at experiencing anything new? It might help you keep perspective.
You'll be all right.
Re: Private message to Madam Pomfrey and Hermione Granger
Date: 2015-05-31 02:56 am (UTC)But my mind feels so different inside now. I don't even recognise the person who I am now, judging by my thoughts.
Re: Private message to Madam Pomfrey and Hermione Granger
Date: 2015-05-31 03:10 am (UTC)I mean, like in meditation?
Perhaps that would help.
Re: Private message to Madam Pomfrey and Hermione Granger
Date: 2015-05-31 03:15 am (UTC)My mind isn't working very well.
I will try that, before I try to sleep.